Friday, March 14, 2014

Silver lining :)

I wish everyone finds their own share of silver in the cloud hovering over their heads.....

Clicked this pic couple of days back when I was feeling bit gloomy, and when I happened to see this amazing view, it changed my prespective and brought a smile on my lips....

Tuesday, March 11, 2014

Waiting.....

I don't know the exact moment when I conceived you, I wish I had....but you from that moment till this time,  you have been an inseparable part of me, we breath together,  we eat together,  and more importantly we are always together....you have grown inside me inch by inch and I have taken best possible care of you...given up most of my favourite things so that you grow up to be healthy....our relationship has been so intricate and yet I don't know how you are,  how you look and same goes for you as well, you don't know how your mother looks, what she is like.,..isn't this strange? ?  

How things change...I mean I never thought that gaining weight will be so important in life at one stage,  seeing my tummy swell will bring joy to my life...that I ll eagerly wait for my baby to kick me hard in the ribs...I would want tiny quakes to shake my belly :) and now I m ready to undergo a knife to see you, to hold you in my arms,  close to my heart...yes I have voluntarily chosen a cesarean section for delivery because I don't think I can carry out the process of normal delivery,  I m not that strong...my family understands and respects my decision.. & now as the time is approaching

I am bit anxious as to how you ll be, what that moment ll be like when we ll finally see eachother for the first time.

Wednesday, March 5, 2014

Journey is about to end, 9th month

..its midnight and I am wide awake, I can't seem to get my sleep....am sad for no apparent reason or maybe I m missing Akash....its my 9th month now & it has its own challenges:

I don't like to sleep alone
I seem to have a weak heart
Need assistance while getting up from my bed as my right leg sort of gives away
Frequent nightmares, if at all I fall asleep
& obviously my persistent problem, frequent trips to WC.

It was fine till mid 8th month but now as the time is progressing and my weight is increasing,  I seem to be lagging behind in terms to my daily activities...that's the reason I feel lonely even though I have people around me...but I still miss Akash....  

Apart from this sad story....the good thing is that few more weeks to go and I ll be holding a bundle of joy in my arms that will make this sad part to forget forever with his innate charm :)