Where am I??

I wake up to the comfort of a familiar surroundings, Lofty wind pushes it way inside the room and fills me with a sense of calmness and comfort!! I am wide awake ....and happy for being that way!!

Earth is rotating slowly to complete one full rotation around the sun, and I am completely unaware about the rotation because I don't feel it anyway, I am too busy marveling at the beauty all around me, too happy to a part of it even though I know that it's not my reality anymore, that as the earth will keep rotating around the sun making days and nights and before I know , My day will be looking at me directly into the eye and mumbling, "it's time to go".

and even though i will pack my stuff with heavy heart,  get my luggage x-rayed for any potential threat to the airport authorities, take a boarding pass for the flight to Mumbai, a "PREEMINENT" part of my heart will always be in Kashmir, wandering in the wilderness, getting awaken by the crisp morning breeze every day...

I will always love you with the deepest core of my heart!!

Around here

Still trying to figure out what I am…still in the process of defining my life, I try to do so many things, yet I fail to complete them…I begin with so much enthusiasm and fail to  take it till the end…that’s me…over enthusiastic me…ludicrous me…

Today while cleaning the cupboard, I found this amazing book and I wondered why?? Why had I left it halfway…I should have completed it…read it through…so here I am reading it again… 

Few amazing lines that I read today:

“ and it is a very simple fact that the more you know, the less you wonder….

As you grow older, you lose the sensitivity for wonder, you become more and more dull…but the reason for it is that now you know everything. You know nothing, but your mind is full of borrowed knowledge, and you have not ever thought that underneath it is nothing but darkness and ignorance…” –Osho, the book of woman.

Someday...

Someday….

Someday I will leave everything behind and never look back…I will move on…with the thought of seeing the unseen…knowing the unknown…hearing the unheard…speaking the unspoken…someday…I will vanish just like that!!  

But I won't be far away…

I will be nearby...you will find me in the tiny bulb pushing its way out through the heart of earth…or may in the fragrance of a new bloom….in the green of the newly emerged leaflet…in the glistening water of a unruly river…you will find me in the sweetness of a beehive… you will hear my melody in a mocking bird!!

 Someday…    :)

May be I am crazy...but I am happy!!

Well that's what happy people do, happy people are bit rebellious, they are bit different, bit wired, they care less about what others might be thinking of them...they go an extra mile , they ask questions, they never hesitate for asking what they want even if others think that it might sound silly...they take out time to do what they love...they are always on the move...they listen to their heart!!

Ok you might be thinking that I am crazy, maybe I am...because I am happy...I never hesitate for asking the guy at the ice cream parlour to put some extra chocolate on my  ice-cream cone...and he smiles and put it happily...I never care what people will think when I take off my sandals and jump in the stream of water in the local park...and kids watch me and they do the same... they jump in with joy...I know that I have shared my happiness with them...

I never hesitate in asking a local vegetable vendor why is he grumpy, is it because he had a bad day...well I wish whatever it is, it will be taken care by god...I know by saying so I have shared his pain as well...must have made him feel a little better if not much!!

I do what i feel like, I live in the moment!! 

May be I am crazy...but I am happy!!

Earth is my home

often late at night when I sit alone, in deep thoughts, I  ask myself...What is luxury?? 

And everytime I close my eyes...I see my hometown Kashmir...and this is what my heart tells me:

Luxury is living in a home not an apartment, home where you have open view, a vast garden in front...where you breathe free, where you grow flowers in the heart of earth not merely in the pots decked in the balcony, not on the terrace but with your own hands in the soil.

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Luxury is your own fav spot at your home... maybe your attic where you lay down on a full moon night and marvel at the beauty of the stars, the purity of the sky…where you get to see nothing but  a vast blanket of twinkling stars at night not adjacent buildings… Luxury is not just Italian sofa, a posh recliner in your living room...   


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Luxury is sleeping without the thought of limitless possibilities, thought of love and a new beginning every morning.

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Luxury is being free from closures…from being indoors…being able to go out in the sun whenever you feel like, letting the door open for those unexpected guests…

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Luxury is throwing a party in the backyard under the clear blue sky and inviting your friends and family and sharing giggles and smiles…

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I am glad that I have seen and been and brought up in such a place where I have grown plants with my own hands…where I have seen and played with frogs in my garden, …where I have plucked the bunch of grapes from the grapevine and gifted some to the neighbours as well… I am glad that I have seen abundant in my life.

 I want that life for Vihaan as well, I want him to see abundant too, to run after butterflies in his own garden, to plant with his own hands in the soil… to nurture nature… to believe that:

“Earth is my home” 

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All the pictures above are captured by me in my home town Kashmir...for more pictures of kashmir, click here and here

Our Valentine's Day ❣

Amazing, fantastic, and fun filled... that was our Valentine's day ❣

I made these paper hearts and statements late at night and by morning everything was ready as planned.

I was little surprised when in the morning Akash came to me and said " so when are we getting ready for the photoshoot" :), he also gave me couple of good ideas for the captures!!

Three of us enjoyed every bit of it and celebrated our valentine's day with lots of love ❤, giggles and chocolate mousse!!

Here are few captures!!

PS: Photography and props credit also goes to my loving husband Akash!!

Just for a day...

Night after night when the world is sleeping, I see a part of me emanating from my skin, slipping out of my flesh and dancing in the Astral plane...saying to me .... what if just for a day;

I turn into a bird with mighty wings, withstanding every storm, lightening bolt...I fly high !!

I turn into a flower in a beautiful valley, I see bloom everywhere and open starry sky...

I turn into a fish flowing with the melody of a river...that quenches the thirst of dry...

"What if just for a day"... 

Reading again :)

Two roads diverged in a wood, and I-

I took the one less traveled by,

and that has made all the difference.

                          (Robert Frost) Quoted in The witch of Portobello

Reading Witch of Portobello by Paulo Coelho...

 It was long back in summer of 2009 that I had read this wonderful book, and that time.. I had a tradition of my own, every month when salary was credited to my account, I would head straight to the book store that was just outside the ATM and I would spend good amount of time in meticulously choosing my read, magnificent tradition, wasn't it??  

Today while I was arranging stuff, this book caught my eye and I thought why not read it again,... so here I am listening to the witch, letting her speak and trying to relate to the witch inside me ;)

May be It will take a month, may 2 months, or may be more than that to read it through & through, yet I can try, try not giving up on this wonderful habit of reading again...maybe I will read just a page a day...may be more than 5, who knows...whatever it will be, I will read everyday..lets see how well I do it... will surely do a book review once I am done :)

Blog Anniversary

3 years of  blogging!!! 

This blog is my own personal space where I  share my thoughts, my creativity and my moments of despair, and in these 3 years I have learned a lot through my blog, I never thought that I could be good at photography, writing quotes, designing my own images and so much more.... and also putting them all together nicely.

Blogging has energized me, refreshed me, it has fueled and unleashed my creativity and the person inside me, it has kept me going when things were difficult and given me inspiration and motivation when I needed. This blog has been my best friend in these 3 years :) and this blog has given me wonderful friends as well.

Thanks to Bella, lamb loves fox, and Farhuma for joining me in this journey and making it wonderful!!

This blog has beautifully treasured all my memories and the course of my life...when I look back from where I started, I see a lot better me now.

This wonderful journey is surely miles to go...happy blogging to me!!

What I heart...

First month of the New year,I was surfing the Internet and thinking about what I would love to do in this new year, what I would do different, I do have few things in my mind, some I can do and for some I will have to wait bit longer till we have a house of our own and till Vihaan is of a certain age, when he can take care of himself, may be in his 20'S.

Till the time I can dream about them...

Here is the list:

I want my very own Art room in my house,where I don't have to keep things locked up, stashed away, A room where everything is in my reach and where I can just be and create stuff I love.Something like the links below:

So Simply Stephanie

Room with ample light

The cafe blog (Neat and clean)

Tetsuharukubota, everything right there

I like sewing, you can create so many beautiful things if you know how to sew, can surely add some charm to your home with so many sewing ideas, I wish I could...I intend to buy a really good sewing machine this year, so that I can make some beautiful stuff like below:

Home made sewing

Home made quilts

Crochet,Hmmm.....yup I wish I could make some nice designs like the the links below, just like that :)

Wrap sweater

Pinterest collection

Lovely patterns

An adventure trail, wow the mere idea lifts my soul and makes me go "Ga GA", I get this burst of energy every time I watch this video below...

Mahindra Arise Adventure ad

So this is my list, and definitely this is not complete...there are many more things to be added...for now..that's it...will update the list soon.

This is what I heart...I would love to know what do you??

I love to create new templates, quotes and infographic and I also share  the stuff that I create on weheartit...today I jotted down all the good words that came to my mind and made a word cloud out of them!!

May these words be the always in our life, our heart and soul...

Have a happy weekend!!

New perspective-New beginning-our story!!

Last night my husband said something to me that changed the whole perspective of my blogging, he said to me that he had been through my blog and he read every single post, he saw all the images and he said he felt so good to see all that, it was a complete visual tour of our wonderful years spent in Delhi, our outings, our joys, little things that we did together!! 

Later at night  Akash and Vihaan were  sleeping and I could hear nothing but their peaceful breathing, I opened my blog and saw all those pics and posts, it was a beautiful journey, a wife and now a wife + new mom...

my pregnancy posts and then Vihaan's early days...it surely felt good and then I thought about a thousand things, about our life as a family about Vihaan progress, about our future, about the time when Vihaan will grow into a handsome young man, about his girlfriend/girlfriends :), his wife and children, about the time when I will be no more and Akash will be here on earth with my  memories...he will have my blog, our life in front of him in pictures, in posts...how great it will be..

Vihaan will have our visual story, his childhood pictures...It will be a legacy.

All these thoughts played right in front of my eyes..as if it was happening and I was witnessing all this....as if i travelled in time and came back...and when I came back to the night , to the place I saw the calm composed face of my husband and my son and I felt a wave of calmness fill me , my senses, as the moonlight fills the dark night with it's silvery glow and makes everything shine, dispelling the gloom and shadows!!

I thought of putting my all heart and my love to this very space of mine, this very blog, my sanctuary, it has so many memories to tell, it has our story, our joys, our achievements, our essence...I will make it special!! I will give it a new beginning a new perspective!!

I will leave behind a place that is welcoming for my family to come back when they feel like, place that has warmth and love, place that makes you forget everything else while you are here.... No matter in what mood you are in...I promise you will always feel enlivened here...wish me luck in this endeavour!!

Sunshine lulling my baby to sleep :)

Curious eyes trying to figure out what mom is up to??

This is your favourite pose and your dad's too :)!!

A dog caught your attention here!!

My book of possibilities :)

That's what I feel...

I like to click something unusual everyday...something that requires lot of brainstorming , something that I enjoy clicking...at times it gets really difficult to come up with ideas everyday but it keep me on my toes and restless that I really like. Here are 2 different shots with same message!!

I dream-part 2

I am a lot into dreaming nowadays or may be a lot of jotting my thoughts on fibers of cellulose pulp derived from wood, rags or grasses, and drying them into flexible sheets, I mean paper :) My Grey Matter  is quite active nowadays...I have a written a piece today in the series , I dream....I had posted one yesterday as well...It somehow comes naturally to me...visions about hills, dales, snow laden valleys,fields of blooming flowers...yes, all this is an integral part of me...my being...

I dream of a dream...sometimes with eyes closed and oftenly with open eyes....

I dream of a snow laden valley covered in fresh falling snow.....

I dream of a cat hiding away...under the roof with a red bow...

I dream of smoke emerging from roof tops....

I dream of streets with ginger fragrant shops....

I dream of a patch of land from which a tiny beautiful tulip pushes its way to outside....

I dream of a butterfly that waits eagerly it to bloom, as to the beauty, its heart is tied...

I dream of a valley covered with golden daffodils...

I dream of a lighthouse, of swaying wind mills...

I dream of a river...wide and rude...

I dream I could sit near it all day and lighten my mood...
I dream of woods, pure and green....

I dream of woods, where I oftenly will be seen...

I dream of weeping willow, I dream of birch trees...

I dream of fireflies and bumble bees...

I dream of the melody of whistling wind...

I dream of fragrance of camphor and orange rind....

I dream of a dream....I dream with open eyes....

I dream...

I dream of a dream...sometimes with my eyes closed and most of the times with open eyes...I dream of a house of my own, which has my essence, my breath. I dream of my own house with a beautiful big garden, full of flowers, a botanical wonderland, which buzzes with bees and birds, croaks with toads and crows, flutters with butterflies and dragonflies...which shelters nature and its beings....I dream of my own house with wide French windows..which opens a vista of beauty outside as far as eyes can see, which splatters rain all over in stormy days and nights, where I sit in my arm chair holding a cup of warm masala tea and I get absorbed in the drops of rain, my eyes tracing them in their due course and eventually out of sight......where I see the dawn, the first ray of sunshine and stars at night....I dream of a house with a porch, where I vacillate in my swing...back and froth...and I inhale a fresh breeze mixed with mint, chamomile, rose, jasmine, sweet briar and so many other floras’, where fireflies join their hand together to form a cornet around my head..and butterfly adorns my wrist like a bracelet....I dream of a house with an asphalt path leading me to a calm and serene lake nearby....where swans greet me by  moving in water with elegance and style.....where lotus refreshes my eyes with its charming beauty.....I dream of a house where there is a wooden bench underneath an old birch tree...where I sit and read my book....where I inscribe my poetry.......I dream of a house, where from the doorway my beloved calls me....to share his thoughts and caresses.....I dream of a house.....I dream with open eyes.....