Finally my baby boy is here in my arms, all snuggled up as if still in the womb..,, born on 26th March....I am writing this post with moist eyes....suddenly I feel as a well of emotions is overflowing from my heart....my heart is filled with joy
I can't believe that I am a mother now,..I look at you while you are sleeping (which you do most of the time) & I wet my eyes..,, this feeling can't be put into words....thank you lord!! It has been 11 days now...looking at your serene face also scares me a bit....I don't know of I ll be able to take best care of you or not..., you are just so tiny that sometimes I don't really understand what to do..., you cry a lot when I change your nappy , you almost hold your breath with your uncontrollable temper, I feel like crying too.... you sleep for most of the time and I keep checking every now & then if you are okay or not....I am too anxious....its that you are too precious that I don't want anything bad to happen to you...you don't sleep peaceful at night and you wake up every once in a while and I lull you back to sleep, sometimes I feel as if you just need my warmth to feel secure, because when I hold you , you fall back asleep.....
I just pray to god that he guides me through this motherhood journey so that I take best possible care of you and I give you all the love and right set of values so that you grow up to be a great compassionate human being..
With love your mother!!