From last few days I don't know what has happened, I am a lot into introspection, meaning of life, wounded souls, pain and all that stuff, I cant seem to get that out of my head!! and today was like the sort of day, were I felt like I could actually see through people, their worries, their pain and never ending chaos... There are these peaks in my mood every now and then but this time, it seems unending...I reached home a little late than usual at 10 PM, at every third traffic light, I saw people running, pacing, some rushing towards home, others in ambulance, some in police captivity, some alone, some with their loved ones and friends. some were broken, some trying to be strong!!! That's what life is all about. And then to actually rub salt on my wounds, I came across our society gate keeper, He saw me getting out of the office cab and he stood up to greet me, he is some 60-65 years old guy...I felt sort of awkward actually hurt...I wanted to tell him..not to do that, I am no big deal, I am cut from the same cloth like he is...I wanted to offer him a cup of tea and sit with him next to him and talk to him about how he feels...Its not easy to stand there all day long, I wanted to acknowledge the fact that he is doing a wonderful job and we really love him. But I did nothing, absolutely nothing, I don't know what held me back and that hurts real bad.
Does it happen with you as well?? when you want to do something and you don't do it because something holds you back and you are caught up in that silly stupid question, "should I do it, will it be okay, how will it look, and so on??"